Life isn't easy. Whoever said it was, is a fool. Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I’m sure my life to others looks perfect. I have a beautiful home, two wonderful girls, and a sexy husband. I was living the American dream. I should be happy, right?
Then why do I just feel so empty, so numb. Life goes on day after day. I see it moving around me; I just couldn't feel it. Don't get me wrong, I love my girls with everything I am, but Tyler is a different story. I do believe I love him on some level. I’m just not in love with him anymore. When did it all fall apart? Was there any way to stop the downward spiral of my life?
I smiled as I think of the one constant in my life; my best friend Peyton. She is my rock, my confidant, my sanity, and she is always there to pick me up when I fall. She is the eternal optimist. Her favorite saying is, You sometimes have to change things within yourself, before you can expect the things around you to change.